We found out on August 12, 2004 after 10 long months of infertility that OMG we were pregnant with triplets. What a rocky road of emotions!! I was due April 22, 2005. My pregnancy although much shorter than it should have been was long starting September 7. I had many complications which by October 1 I was on complete bedrest. Many ups and downs later it all started on a snowy blizzardy Sunday afternoon in January. January 16, 2005 I went into labor 14 weeks before I was supposed to deliver. My water broke at 3 and at 4:14 my first of three miracles was born Emily Elizabeth Kubera. She weighed in at a mere 1lb 8oz. At 4:16 her sister Megan Faith Kubera was born my "heavy weight" at 2lb 4oz and 1minute laster 4:17 Olivia Renee Kubera entered this world at 1lb 14oz. How scary!! The NICU team from Saint Vincent Hospital in Erie PA braved the whiteout conditions with at least 15 people and 3 ambulances to come and get the girls and transport them back to Erie. Emily was in the operating room with me along with wonderful nurses and drs from both Jamestown and Erie. She would breath on her own and then I heard them say she is not breathing she is blue help her. It seemed like it went on forever. Megan and Olivia were being treated in other rooms and once given help with breathing they were ready for transport. My Emily was finally stable enough for transport. They wheeled all of the isolettes in to me at about 8:30 so that I could say I love you and touch my babies, being that they were so small and so critical I did not know if I would ever see any of them alive again. I placed my hand on all of them and told them I loved them. Emily grabbed my pinky finger and gave it a big squeeze. Something I will never never forget. They arrived back in Erie around 10:30. They called my husband Kyle here in Jamestown and told him that the smallest of the three Emily was not doing well and he better head out to Erie. At 11:56pm January 16, 2005 my IV beeped and woke me up, at that same minute my little Emily Elizabeth went to be with Our Heavenly Father. The next day I called my mom at work when I woke up. She had trouble talking to me I knew that something had happened. My husband Kyle came to the hospital the next day and I could see it on his face. I just said no, no, no... please don't tell me. It was the hardest thing I have ever gone through. If it were not for Emily my other two daughters would not be here. She saved her sisters. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of her. She is our Angel and always will be. I still have thoughts of Why did this happen? Why did he take my baby from me? What could I have done different to save her? What did I do wrong? But everyone always tells me it is not my fault. She was so small and her lungs just could not work hard enough. My other two daughters are now 3 1/2 years old and perfect at that! Megan cruised through the NICU spending 78 days and Olivia was very critical with 7 chest tubes and grade III bilateral brain bleed was in for 91. I believe that Emily watched over her and got her through. I have seen it all in the NICU and would love to talk with anyone else who has had an experience. I am here for support at any time. |